thought_life_of_aud

2007-01-06T01:30:00.000+08:00

i enjoyed going out with friends alot..

just came back frm Parkway,
was with shilin,tong,tp.

din really stay for long,but enjoyed the time tgt.

sometimes,
quality time do count ya.

my love language----?? haha..

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gonna hit gym soon,
CYN coming..

means-

1)more food
2)eat ,eat and eat
3)grow fat..

(arghzzzzzz... i dont want..)

haha.. so need to cut dwn now. =)

someone gonna motivate me to go gym!!

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things to do for this month:

do something to my hair.
go JB.
pay sch fees.
buy clothes.
get new bag.
get perfume.
catch a movie.

2007-01-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

happy new year!! thou i'm few days late, but..
better late than never. =)

gonna set my goals and resolutions VERY soon. hee..
else, as months passed by,
sure forget abt it.

first of all,
wanna see a breakthru in my relationship with parents.
many things happened, so really hope that everything's gonna be alrite.

hmm.. for my studies, pray that can score well.

health- be strong. don't wanna get sick..

finances- save up money that i earn.

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thou all these are very vivid ones,
dun think will really put up the draft here.

gonna pray for a word for 2007.
GROWTH? STRONGER? BUILDING?

what will my 2007 be????...... hmm..

gd bye 2006, welcome in 2007

2007-01-02T13:43:00.000+08:00

a brand new year!!

2007.

kinda excited after the thanksgiving mtg on Sun.
was fun and heart warming at the end of the whole mtg.

esp, when we started to sing that song 'Thank You'..
went ard to give all my friends hugs..
of cos, my cg members too..

2006 was such an adventurous year with many of them.
really looking forward to this coming year.

a new year, means brand new resoultions.

2006-12-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

Pst Tan shared a very gd msg on sat.

i knew that God has spoken to me in various areas of my life, my ministry.
i need desire to do more, dare to step out into the unknown, willing to trust God in everything i have been doing.
Let it NOT leave it to tomorrow,
do it today!

sometimes it's when u are ready to go, set in your heart,
wanna do so much more for God,
then spiritual attacks took place.

i do need a breakthrough in my life.
i do need a breakthrough in my ministry.
Let me do what i desire, but single-minded on what i want in life.
focus unto the work of God's kingdom.
i need Your grace and mercy..

we need to
PRAY and birth fore the souls into the kingdom of God.
Not by might, nor by power,
BUt by the Holy Spirit. AMEN.

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2006-12-11T01:09:00.000+08:00

so much to update here..

today had food poisoning, think it must be the satay last nite at bedok 85. =(
went in and out of toilet at 5plus in morning.
ended up => lack of slp.

anyway,
been very busy with my tuition assignments lately.
9 ongoing ones..
Thank God for that..
but also gonna pray for more strength too.

San's wedding day 3

2006-11-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

Peace time with ZY! haha..
my dear fren, dap!
Johnson & aud... nice ah..
adam & aud..

JB San's wedding day2

2006-11-24T01:05:00.000+08:00

Jun and me in Lala land! (JB) Mr Pig with me..
Help Lijun... she's dying from our warfight! haha
Johnson and me! =)

San's wedding day 1

2006-11-24T00:59:00.000+08:00

Zone Pic With Nic & San on their BIG BIG day!
Zone Leaders & Pst YK tgt with them!

2006-11-09T00:56:00.000+08:00

a smile on ur face brings a smile unto mine too! =)

2006-11-07T01:48:00.000+08:00

The Space Between
Dave Matthews Band

You cannot quit me so quickly
There's no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you love

The space between
The tears we cry...
Is the laughter that keeps us coming back for more

The space between...
The wicked lies we tell and hope to keep safe from the pain
But will I hold you again
These fickle fuddled words confuse me
Like will it rain today
We waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted games we're playing
We're strange allies
With warring hearts
What a wild eyed beast you be

The space between
The wicked lies we tell and hope to keep safe from the pain
But will I hold you again
Will I hold
Look at us spinning out in the madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like the devil in the church
In the middle of a crowded room
All we can do my love
Is hope we don't take this ship down

The space between
Where you smile and hide
Is where you'll find me if I get to go

The space between
The bullets in our fire fight
Is where I'll be hiding waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splashed in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into your room

The space between
our wicked lies is
Where we hope to keep safe from pain
Take my hand
Cause we're walking out of here
Right out of here
Love is all we need dear

The space between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding
Waiting for you

The space between
In your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time

2006-11-07T01:37:00.000+08:00

is it true that people tend to be more vulnerable in the night?

is it true that people will be more emotional in the night?

is it true that msgs sent in late night shld be ignored?
my ans-
yes, of cos!

2006-11-07T01:26:00.000+08:00

went city hall->Jack's Place(lunch),
then to orchard, Far east->tangs->wisma->meet San->Sushi Tei(dinner).

Meals are on Boqiang today.
he really treated me to alot of nice food.
and of cos,
his wallet got lighter. =)

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think i wanna to go out again one of this wkdays,
should ask xuan to go out with me.
din really talk much to him during the movie outing.

get a nice dress, heels.
then Sun, gng into JB with San and rest. stay over for a day.
will be fun.

2006-11-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

倒带
周杰伦
我受够了等待,你所谓的安排
到底多久多久才来
你总是要我乖,慢慢计划将来
我想依赖却你都不在
应该开心的地带
你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海
我想你应该明白却一直都进不来
你说给我的伤害我是真的很难释

怀终于看开爱回不来,我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开,哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开,宁愿没出息求我别离开

你总是要我乖,慢慢计划将来说的未来
到底多久才来过去怎么安排,你该给的信赖
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
看我脸上的苍白,
看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带
只是感觉已经不在
过去你给的期待,
被我一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块,
要怎么拼凑跟重来

终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息
求我别离开
喔～～～～～～
终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开
离开～啦啦～告别从前的爱求我别离开

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my birthday.. gonna sing this song.
my favourite Ktv song.

2006-11-05T13:17:00.000+08:00

watched movie Step Up with xuan,dap n tanpeng..
i love Channing Tatum!!

he can dance! he's so shuai.. =)
after watching that show,
really feel like joining O School...

hee..

2006-11-04T12:39:00.000+08:00

not too bad..
my new haircut din get alot of bad comments.
haha..

some said too short at e back,
some said they cant really accept the change in a short time,
some said looked very retro,
some said i looked like a BV on stage.

held cgm yst with a new look,
definitely feel abit different.
bt who cares,
His presence is the most impt of all. =)

2006-11-04T12:33:00.000+08:00

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后

sometimes we need to know when to draw a line.
else,
both will ended up getting hurt.

2006-11-03T01:08:00.000+08:00

learning how to handle disappointments is so impt.
learning to let go of it is one of the impt key factors to get over things.

making the impossible possible is not my forte.
BUT God can!

2006-11-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

went out today with mum,megan,diane and joel.
weee..
family outing to bugis street.
carried megan till my arms are aching now.
but fun fun, she's so so so cute..
not only i think that she is,
every salesgirl,auntie wanna play with her.. haha..

well, whenever i carried her..
people give stares at me..
'so young'.. erm....

so my mum told me to take turns with joel.
same thing happened to him.
so funny.
a group of girls walked past him, pointing here and there.
haha.. my mum quickly take over. hee.

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oh man.. time flies.
Oct has came to an end,
and yeah! it's Nov..
left with 2 more months to accomplish my 2006 resolutions.
=)

these 2 months gonna be exciting.
planning for many things to be done. yeah!

2006-11-02T02:16:00.000+08:00

Boqiang's great!
he solved my problem..
within,..hmm.. 3 mins?

haha! yeah!!
thank u ah .. =)

2006-11-02T02:01:00.000+08:00

3 doors down- Be Like That..

This is my poly days' song.
simply love the song..
still rem singing together with 1 of my classmates while walking hme.
Last few sentences go like-
If i could be like that,
I would give anything.
Just to live one day , in those shoes.

ever thought of wanting to be like someone else?
to experience where they are?

Give all u can,
cos then u can be where they are
soon.

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Be Like That...

He spends his nights in California,
watching The stars on the big screen
Then he lies awake and he wonders,
why Can't that be me
Cause in his life
he is filled with all these
Good intentions
He's left a lot of things he'd rather not
Mention right now
But just before he says goodnight,
he looksUp with a little smile at me and he says

If I could be like that, I would Give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do
What would I do
Now and dreams we run

She spends her days up in the north park,
Watching the people as they pass
And all she wants is just a little piece of
This dream, is that too much to ask
With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a Quiet little street
All she wants is just that something to

Hold onto, that's all she needs
Yeah!
If I could be like that, I would
Give anything
Just to live a day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do
I'm falling into this, in dreams
We run away
If I could be like that, I would
Give anything just to live a day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do, What would I do
If I could be like that, I would
Give anything just to live a day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do, What would I do
If I could be like that, I would
Give anything just to live a day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do
falling in
I feel I am falling in, to this again

退后

2006-11-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

2006-11-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

at last,
i changed my hairstyle, darken my hair.. (healthier and guai look)
cut away my fringe.

when audrey did that, i was looking at the person sitting in front of e mirror.
oh man,
the sec sch girl appeared!!
anyway, boqiang just comforted me by saying:
'hair will grow back'.

haha.. ya man.
someday, i will post my pic up. hee.
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without vision, man perish.

find your purpose in life today! =)

2006-10-31T00:32:00.000+08:00

tired..

gave tuitions frm 2 till 10 pm.
fruitful day!
but mouth went numb for awhile after the long day.
been talking and talking and talking.
all i do today is TALK.

need to take very gd care of my throat.
no voice=mc frm work.
haha..

tutees' examz are ending soon.
should have an outing with them.
have an idea of flying kites with them.. =)
will be fun fun fun!!

2006-10-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

NicE song

十月十八我生日这一天
蜡烛熄灭后浮现你的脸
你说祝我生日快乐
但还有话挂在嘴边
你说你身边多了一个他
之后伤人的话你不想讲
你说你会怀念或纪念
谢谢你我该说声感谢
我不屑纪念这一天我们分别
我不屑怀念你的嘴喊着抱歉
我后来发现你的侧脸
只是我脑子里面的一点残缺
一点残缺
但还有话你挂在嘴边
我不屑怀念你的脸欲止又言忘了说抱歉的是我才对

2006-10-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

found a temp job offer at a bank, but in the end..
i think that i shouldnt take it up.

reason being-

1)all my tutees wanna continue their tuition during holidays.
n i have a significant increase in e assignments i'm gng to have next yr.
an increase of 3?
busy 2007 coming... =)

2)office hours job.. hmm..
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i need to work hard !!

2006-10-27T03:07:00.000+08:00

I nEEd SomE CoLORS iN MY LiFE..

so gng audrey's place on tues!
yipee.. muahahaha.

2006-10-27T03:01:00.000+08:00

fren commented that i do look like a mother in the pic with my tutees.
am i growing old?? =(

2006-10-27T02:35:00.000+08:00

pimple outbreak!!
arghz..
=(
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2 weeks ago,
my closer fren in church told me that she's gonna get married soon.
Next yearend.
her bf whom i knw, proposed to her.

i'm so happy for her. =)
she's the one that brought me to church.
same age and we have known each other for almost 10 years frm then.
Time flies!

wah..
come to think of it, days in sec are just like yst.
waterbomb war after school,
hang out in JP,
playing silly games,
moved frm one guy to another(*in the past..),
rebellious towards my parents,
always gng against them,
dun like to listen to advice,
7 sisters' club.. haha..

aiyo.. all those things that we did..
hee..
childish.. yet, would always bring back fun memories.
esp the Qi Jie Meis..
i'm the youngest.

oh man, i can still rem clearly those sisters' name. all my peers in class.
da jie- Xinxia( gt married, had a 5 yr old kid le)
er jie- Huan Huimin( think she just grad frm SIM)
san jie- Hu Huimin( M1 sales executive, par time at SIM)
si jie- Yieling( working le.. part time at SIM too)
wu jie- Weiyin ( SIM full time student)
liu jie- Angeline( model..)
xiao mei wo- aud( SIM full time)

as i was typing out, hey..
most of us have the common thing ah.. studying in SIM.

memories stay in one.

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VIVOcity with Boqiang..

2006-10-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

yeah! finally, the haze seems to disappear with the heavy downpour in the afternn.
yippee!!

but the bad thing is that:
i got drenched.. need to get to my tutee's hse asap.
so , i braved thru the rain..
and here i am, having a slight cold.

immediate effect.
=(

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went VIVOcity yst with boqiang to explore.
when i was walking out of the cntrl station,
was being directed to some certain gates.
at that moment,
i thought i was at Malaysia custom..
long queues... =(

well,
the place is super duper BIG!
very spacious shopping mall..
you can roll, jump, scream, race about, run around.
haha.. *provided u wun bother abt wat ppl think of u when u do all those silly stuff.

many many shops there:let me recall.... hmm..
GAP, ALDO, GUESS,CROCS,PULL AND BEAR,LEVI..TANGS and many more..
eating places:
Thai Express,Gloria's Jeans, Coffee Bean,KopiTiam,Banquet,Foodrepublic, ToastBox,Starbucks,Swensen's, BEn's and Jerry,Sushi Tei...
the list just goes on and on...

there's GV there too.. a VIVOmart.. haha..

reached there at abt 7plus.
wanted to find a place to eat, then we wlked round and round the place.
cant make up our mind due to the crowds..
and
u will really end up walking in circles... haha..
then we kinda explore the whole place,
everywhere is filled with people..and lots of them.
in the end,
we went Thai Express to drink some Tom Yum soup,pineapple rice..
yummy!
i saw Jingting and JD there too.
haha..

anyway,
if u walk in frm Harbourfront Mrt station,
you will be greeted with the Bread PapA and Breadtalk's pastry aroma.
But i find it very disgusting.. cos the smell just overwhelmed the whole B2..

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well, i find that place not too bad..
a gd place to eat after any Sentosa outings..ahha.
not the boring Harbourfront centre anymore.

=)

2006-10-24T01:26:00.000+08:00

Now is the time
When heaven blends with earthly saints
The world resounds, as angels sing
Our God reigns

I give my all to You
I give my all to You
From heaven's throne
Your river flows to this place
And on this rock, foundations lay
Here we stand
I give my all to You
I give my all to You

Pouring out this treasure
You gave
In Your promises our hearts turn brave
I will arise and lay down this sacrifice
As we're building Your house on high

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as in heaven.

allala

2006-10-24T01:17:00.000+08:00

actively looking..
seeking for a job during the holidays.

went hongkong cafe with jun and San yst after a long day.

tuitions in the morning,
blood donation @ Gek Poh Ville in the afternn,
study grp with Kristy and Huy in the late afternn,
dinner with San and Jun.
went hme at 11pm.
tiring but fruitful day!

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walked ard at Tangs,
think i know what i will get for San's wedding dinner.

wah, plus a pair of nice heels..
hmm- $150-200?
hee..

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megan has grown up.. =)

2006-10-14T02:33:00.000+08:00

the starry starry girl.. haha..
see that colourful soft toy?
her favourite 'mao mao chong'.
look at her shocked face!!

after a long while......

2006-10-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

wow.. u guys must be wondering where did i go ..
haha..

ya man, it is when Sixuan told me that i din updated my blog..
only then i realised that i haven been logging into msn or blog for almost 2 weeks.

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updates:
Sch life- now in the midst of my examinations.
12/10 =risk management
13/10= financial statements B
16/10=investment management
17/10=financial planning and construction

2/4 of them are done.
left 2 more to go.. yipee!
looking forward to it.
then planning to work part time during my 2.5 months holidays.

frens- have nt been gng out much with frens.
actually wanna catch movie with lijun they all on Mon, but i was too tired to
go dwn to town area.
must try to catch 'world trade centre'.

currently busy with:
1) (studying).. over soon... =)
2) planning more outreaches for sec members and P6s.
3)gonna teach my tutees after my exams. right after mine, theirs starting.

PTL!! i'm gng to have 2 more new assignments next yr.

praying and seeking for an amt to give in this Arise and Build.

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be in control of your emotions,
it might be your downfall bringing.
or it can make you even a stronger one.

2006-10-01T09:03:00.000+08:00

went for a poly outreach last sat..
gt to know this grp of foreign students, ( some frm Vietnam, Indo, Korea)..

hw to i get to knw them?
oh...over a volleyball court. haha.
they wanna use, we also have 'booked' the court.
so they wanna join us, bt it's a competition..so we
gt them to join us in the jungle trail.
they are a grp of friendly chaps! thus, we broke the ice on that day we met.
after an exchange of hp nums, we managed to meet up in city hall for lunch on thur.
just yst, i met them at orchard again.
another 2 of their frens wana join us too for the mooncake celebration at Sentosa..!

time for harvest!
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yst svc, God spoke to me thru this song..
goes like this:
'Every tribe every tongue
Every nation everyone
call upon the name of Jesus and be saved!'

God told me that..
yeah man! no matter which country they are frm, what language they speak.
they will be saved!

power of confession! =)

2006-09-28T01:01:00.000+08:00

i love Your house,
it's where Your glory dwells..
i love Your house,
a place filled with miracle..
it's where people come
into Your love..

YES! i'm gonna tell the world
how awesome is this place.

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i love the presence of God,
it never fails to make me falling more and more
in love..
over and over again.

Character

2006-09-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

Character is the foundation of our lives..

character is formed through the habits we have.
After repeating a thing for a certain time,
it becomes 'natural' to us.

Character is something we can develop.

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liar will say things like: ' i din do it', 'i dont know wat happened'.

a blamer will say:' it's your fault, nt mine'. or 'you're nt clear in ur instructions, nt my fault'.

a quitter will say:'i told u that it would never work', 'this is too hard,nt worth it'.

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Character lives by conviction rather than preference.

Character is patient endurance when life is going badly.

Character remains faithful to ppl you've made commitments to when it's not convenient.

i want to be someone of character..

2006-09-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

all my tuition kids @ my place... except 3 of them. =)

2006-09-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

look at those big, round eyes... that explained why she's my darling.. =)

megan..

2006-09-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

she's my new love...
falling...
awwwww....
she cut her hair..wat an unhappy face..

2006-09-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

FOUND LOVE BEYOND ALL REASON
YOU GAVE YOUR LIFE, YOUR ALL FOR ME
AND CALL ME YOURS FOREVER

CAUGHT IN THE MERCY FALLOUT
FOUND HOPE, FOUND LIFE, FOUND ALL I NEED
YOU'RE ALL I NEED

THE TIME HAS COME
TO STAND FOR ALL WE BELIEVE IN
SO I FOR ONE
I'M GONNA GIVE MY PRAISE TO YOU

TODAY! TODAY IS ALL OR NOTHING
ALL THE WAY THE PRAISE GOES OUT TO YOU
YEAH ALL THE PRAISE GOES OUT TO YOU
TODAY! TODAY I LIVE FOR ONE THING
TO GIVE YOU PRAISE IN EVERYTHING I DO
YEAH ALL THE PRAISE GOES OUT TO YOU

CAUSE ALL WE ARE IS YOURS
ALL WE LIVING FOR IS ALL YOU ARE
IS ALL THAT YOU ARE

His love

2006-09-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

the marriage course has been such a great blessing to me.

not tat i am attached or wat,
bt in general..
really prepare one to handle relationships in life.
=)

for eg:
be an active listener.
choose a right time to talk.
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Jesus dont love the sins, but He loves the sinners still.

He loves us no matter
how much we have disappointed Him,
let Him down..
His love for us is everlasting, never changing.
His agape love.
unconditional love He gave.

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2006-09-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

how to fight fair...

how impt communication is.

between 2 close friends,
with your family,
as a couple,
in a group of people.

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learn to speak well, and express yourself.

2006-09-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

Mon- 10:22p.m

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realised that i have gradually, slowly..
getting back the social life i need,
that i had during sec days.
movies, movies...

caught quite a few recently.
like- latest with San, TP, lijun, Zhiyong ( the devil wears 'prada'), snakes on e plane,little man, etc..
wow, last year i hardly watch more than 3 shows in e whole yr.
this yr, within 3 months..

i watched abt 6 movies. haha..
of cos,
some of those are with my dearest members like
jingye and sixuan.
haha..
suppose to go gyming tonight with xuan and yq.
nt feeling too well, so din go.
caught in rain early this morning at Sentosa. =(

well,
been out quite often with San, lijun, zhiyong, tanpeng, Hendri n e rest..
hee, can form a sun movie club le.

P.S: TP, must come out with me nxt week too k. hee..

2006-09-13T17:07:00.000+08:00

thank u guys for all the prayers, smses and encouragement..

mum is discharged today! =)
Praise God!!
she just gonna take more vegetables and fruits.

no worries man,
i can nag,really can.
even my mum cant stand it during her stay in hospital.
haha..
and i will do a gd job frm nw on.
hee..

more vegetables!! more fruits.. eat eat eat!! =)

one more moment.

2006-09-12T02:43:00.000+08:00

i couldn't slp..
time check:0238am.

oh no..
i need to be up by 730am tml to get dwn to NUH.

have to try to slp anyhow.
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Sun, you rocks!
'One more moment' is so nice.. =)

truly, music can bring healing to a person's soul.
you got to choose the music u listen to wisely,
the right song at the right time at least.

someone ever told me that before.

2006-09-12T02:16:00.000+08:00

nice pic with Wenling..
thank you,YZ!

BBD nite..

2006-09-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

i love this pic! so nice..
(many thanks to yangzheng!he's great!!)

=)

2006-09-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

if you want a '10', you need to be a '10' yourself.

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memories will form the personality that u have now.

cos i chose to remember those happier ones,
i know i can be a happy person.

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inner vows are just like an alarm clock that u have set inside.
we dont know when is it going to ring, but it will go off
when the circumstances arise.
until it rings, then we knw it's an alarm that we have set.

so check with yourself.
have u make any inner vows? -
well, disperse them all away today. =)
Let go, and let God.

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when you let go of what you have in your hands,
God will let go of what He has in His hands!

revelation for me when Pst Derek shared the offering msg last wk.

if u keep holding onto the things, refuse to let go, dont let go..
God cant release what He has in His hands for you.

2006-09-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

Business Breakthrough Dinner!

2006-09-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

dont take too long to say ' i love you'
to the one you love,
cos time has a habit of slipping away.

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i want you here tonite,
i need you by my side,
just one more moment.
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i love this song,
such a meaningful song lyric.

mum admitted into hospital today,
knew it only when dad called home at 11am.
was planning to go school then, bt in e end .. i din.

waited for baby's father to fetch her,
then i rushed dwn.

very first time my mum stayed in hospital.
complained of abdomen pain for days.
she was afraid, i was worried.
prayed on my way there, informed some of my closer friends.
dont know wat to do.. thank God, my dad was there.

saw her in the ward,
she looked like she has just cried.
i knw why, she was reminded of times my grandparents were still ard and
they were warded in too.

i assured her that everything's gonna be alright.
she replied :' God will heal'. =)

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acc her till 9pm.
tml will go take care of her. gng for a scope scan at 12 noon.
pls pray for her.
thanks! =)

weekend.

2006-09-11T11:31:00.000+08:00

been hanging out quite abit with San's cg members.
with lijun, zhiyong esp..
well, it's gd to know more ppl and enlarge my social circle afterall.
haha..

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i went out with shujing, lijun and jingye after svc and PM to get somestuff yst at cineleisure.
it was pouring heavily. and we have to brave the rain from somerset mrt to cine.

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then went movie with lijun, barry, zhiyong, hendri and hardy.
watched 'little man'.
i'm gonna watch that on wed again. so i think
zhiyong is kind enuff to treat me .
haha. seldom get that kind treatment frm him.. haha.
quite a nice show lah, no brainer show.
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went balcony @ orchard. nice place thou.
i shld ask my peers to go one day. nice place to chat.=)

i wanna watch my @the devil wears prada@...
maybe shld go watch today .. haha..

frens

2006-09-04T11:49:00.000+08:00

Friends..

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i have quite a few close friends that matter to me alot.
dap,tanpeng,meitong,mingxuan,san,yieling, boqiang(sim fren)..

well, i can say and be very sure that they will always be there for me
when i need someone to support me.

i thank God for them all,
always wanna God-given friends,
and i know that they are those sent into my life..
=)

Dap- she is really a very nice n thoughtful girl,
she listens and will be there for me
when i need her to.
her overnite stayings over my place were e fun times we had.
these are times whereby we can sit dwn, shared abt revelations,
things in our lives, and have heart- to- heart talks.(seldom get e chance)
it was really gd.wat more can i ask?
i cherish every moment of it. =)

p.s doggy as pet
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mingxuan is a fren tat can understand me the most..
dun have to say out things at things, he know wat exactly am i thinking..

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Tanpeng- the laughing queen.
she can laugh and laugh like nobody's business.. haha.
tot of her made me wanna laugh too.
glad to have her, she shared wat she learnt in SOT. and always
gladly share e knowledge she rcv, e faith she rcv.
tanpeng also told me that food is a representation of love.
(that i din knw)
she is such an interesting person, not forgetting that
she kept a naughty doggy called..( coffee )i think..
for me, i am nv an animal lover. so u can imagine,
when i went to her place,... arghs..
how i react?
i dun mind actually,
but dog likes to lick..
and always, dun knw why..
i will be overwhelmed by the smell of its saliva.
all over my feet. but well, it's my gd fren's doggy.. so i will try to love it too.
Chinese saying- ai wu ji wu.
hahhahahaha... =)

p.s doggy as pet
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meitong- someone who went LTC tgt with me and the rest of 4.
what bonded us tgt were the times when we went for guitar class @
suntec tgt.. we always have to rush, no i meant FLY.
cos citylink to suntec is a long long way with many ppl during e weekends.
she loves animals too. come to realise a common ground among my friends,
they love animals. which i dun..
fluffy... haha..

p.s rabbits as pet
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San- a fren who i have learnt alot from her.
i guess her grace towards ppl.
she's gt real high EQ too, to be tactful in words.. =)
sensitive and cares for ppl.
a fren that i know she will never leave me alone by myself.
not only that, she helped me alot in my preaching,
guidance and patience with me.
rem that e very first time i nd to prepare to preach in cg,
she stayed in suntec mac for ..hmm... think 2 hrs to 3hrs??
just to go thru with me.
i was so blessed..
she's such an encourager to me, to many others too.. =)

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yieling- my sec old fren.. come to think of it,
we knew each other for 11 years!! oh no..
we are growing older le. but well, age with e grace of God ya.=)
for those who dunno, she's e one that invited me to church years ago.
i seldom go out with her, but we always gt chance to fellowship
during our way back hme from Tue ldrs' mtg.
we always,without fail.. laughed tgt when we tot of the past we had.
the waterbomb sessions we had after sch at multi-storey carpark,
all the incidents we went thru tgt, it's really through thick and thin kind.
travelling tgt back was good, cos we both not only shared wat's gng on in our lives.
we also shared cab fare back to the west.
hahaha.. i rem first time i went for mtg, she was happy.
happy for my promotion and also happy that i can shared her burden..hee.
and also our holiday trip nv come thru,
But hopefully... after BF, we will go for one. =)

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boqiang- sim fren.. poor thing, he went for the audtion for Superstar on Sun..
bt yet cancelled and postponed to the nxt day.
he waited for 9 hrs?
just to go into the tent i believe,
to sing a few lines.
anyway, i believe he can make it far. yeaah!!
he gt real gd voice, classmates and i went Ktv with him a few times.
he can sing like jay, zhang xue you. cool ah..
well, he likes to say lame jokes too.
we always enjoyed gng out with him, cos
he nv failed to make us laugh. =)

p.s hamsters as pet.
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thank you all for the encouraging words that you brought into my life,
the comfort and love.. =)
truly, that are wat frens are for.
i wanna be someone like that too. =)

You're my hiding place.

2006-09-04T03:13:00.000+08:00

I FIND YOU AT THE SECRET PLACE
I FIND YOU ON THE MOUNTAIN
I FIND YOU IN THE EARLY HOURS OF MY DAY

I FIND YOU WHEN I'M WAITING
I FIND YOU WHEN I'M IN YOUR WORD
I FIND YOU WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU WHEN I PRAY

CREATE IN ME A CLEAN HEART
AS I COME AWAY WITH YOU
WASH AWAY ALL OF MY STAINS
AND RESTORE TO ME THE JOY I HAVE IN YOU

YOU'RE MY HIDING
YOU'RE MY HIDING PLACE
YOU'RE MY HIDING
YOU'RE MY HIDING PLACE

my sun niteout

2006-09-04T02:51:00.000+08:00

230am=
just got back from movie with zhiyong, lijun,sheezheng,alex and shengquan.

we watched 'Snakes on plane'.
CAUTION: for those who are really afraid of snakes, u better dun catch it.
why? cos there's alot in e show.
eeeeeee.... scary, me and lijun kinda sit very close tgt in order to grab one another.
hahaha..
well, then funny thing is..
when i just reached hme, i saw a lizard.
and i tot i saw a SNAKE!
hahhaha... funny ah!

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today's svc was great! very ministering.
Pst taught about the toxics in life.
well, i think i can identify myself with some at least.
like e inner vows and some others.

i kinda released myself in a way.yup.
i have.
time to get all my focus unto more urgent stuff.

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met Hendri for financial planning and San @ suntec to talk.

there are so many things i nd to knw,
nd to get over and move on.
i need a balance in life!
my social circle..
friend like zhiyong, always like to suan and make fun of me.
well, i enjoyed his companionship.
funny guy to hang out with. gonna fellowship with them more.
=)
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Ps 9:9-10.
The Lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed.
A refuge in times of trouble.
And those who know Your name will put their trust in You;
For You,Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.

my refuge, my hiding place.

2006-08-31T09:57:00.000+08:00

whoever you are, watever you are..
do not be a professional Christian..
not just by the things you are doing, but your heart and your worship before Him.

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was just listening to this song by Delirious.

lyrics goes like:
i'm living just to fall more in love with You.
..it's time to walk the path that many seemed to have fallen.

i dun wanna be afraid to do things that others cant.

boldness! and new ideas i pray!
no time left to sit back and do nothing about all lost souls out there.
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gym session

2006-08-30T16:55:00.000+08:00

went gym with sixuan and yongquan on mon.

u din hear me wrongly, it's SIXUAN!!
haha..
why will i say that, it's becos since i knw him for so long..(abt 3 - 4 yrs)

we din go exercise tgt b4,
well.. maybe we dun have the time, or can i say that
he dun like to workout.

for me, i wanna keep fit and healthy.
dun wanna to feel sickly.
=) i'm doing fine nw.

i joked abt that, saying to yq..
when sx's on the treadmill, i gonna video it dwn for the rest to see..
haha..
i'm soooooo bad.
anyway, gonna try to commit every monday nite
to go gyming with them
or to catch a show!
hope it will last long.. hee..
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jiayou, my fren!
=) u are doing so well..

2006-08-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

learning to let go and let God.

indeed God's ways are always (i said ALWAYS).. higher than our ways.

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2006-08-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

God reminded me of my very first time
when i cried in His presence,
my first time that i said- i will commit to You, Your house,
my first time saying- i am all for You...

First Love..

2006-08-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

FIRST- (a beautiful song)

I LOVE, BECAUSE YOU FIRST LOVED ME
I LIVE, BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU GAVE
YOU DIED, SHOWED ME HOW TO LIVE
YOUR MERCY TAUGHT ME TO FORGIVE

YOU CAME AND POURED YOURSELF SO FREE
YOUR BLOOD WASHED AWAY MY SHAME
AND NOW I CAN LIVE AGAIN
I'M MORE OF YOU AND LESS OF ME

MY FIRST LOVE
FOREVER YOU WILL BE
MY FIRST BREATH
YOU'RE THE LIFE IN ME
MY FIRST JOY
THE WORLD CAN NEVER TAKE FROM ME
MY COVENANT WITH YOU
JESUS

YOUR LOVE FALLS DOWN
YOUR LOVE FALLS DOWN
YOUR LOVE FALLS DOWN
OVER ME

Dr'. AR. Bernard.

2006-08-21T02:31:00.000+08:00

over the weekend, i was so tremendously blessed
by the conference by DR. Ar. Bernard.

he's so cool! he's a great thinker. and thought of things that
are so far-fetched from wat i can think or imagine.

gt so much relevations to drop dwn,

bible says that we have to write it down,
on a tablet. then we can thus run tgt with it.

i have learnt that there is a need to CLEARLY
articulate the visions and dreams we have in life.
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that is so true for many of us,
many times, we just think that it's ok to know it in our hearts.
BUT that is not enough,
if you want people to go fore ,
run fore with the visions u have.

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main growth begins when we have a clear vision of our ministry.

get first-hand revelation from God!
that is so important in our walk with God daily,
without visions, men perish.

without strengthening from God,
you will grow weary.

thus , do not grow weary of doing good.
for in due season, all things (ALL THINGS) shall work out goog
for those who love Him.
amen!
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Soldiers are devoted

2006-08-16T18:54:00.000+08:00

2Tim 2:4
'No one engaged in warfare entangled himself
with the affairs of this life,
that he may please him who enlisted him as a soldier.
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entangle- to be in the weave.

many times, our focus will be blur by things around us,
distracting our love and desires from God.

our mind dwells on wat our heart loves.

Warfare needs total focus,
soldiers being single-minded in the battlefield.

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obedience versus faith

2006-08-16T18:34:00.000+08:00

Obedience-

it takes much faith to obey.

many areas that we need faith to step out
of the comfort zone we are in.
in giving, in doing things we have never done before in life.

esp when you are always not very confident
in making it happened.

FAITH is spelled as RISK.

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2006-08-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

more of You and less of me..

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Art of shepherding-
today,as i attended the home cgl course. once again,
God reminded me of my visions and dreams.
just wat does it mean to be like a shepherd.

sometimes, people tend to get so busy with things in life,
in ministry that almost forgotten that
we are created to worship God,love Him.

i wanna serve God with a heart
that always will look unto Him,
His grace and mercy.

loving God wholeheartedly,
loving people fervently.

dap's bdae

2006-08-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

one of the nicer pics i took with my buddies...

1st entry

2006-08-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

yippee!

1st entry:

dunno why, seemed extremely happy to have this bloggy up.
well.. maybe my home pc was down for almost.... months!! haha..

will wanna write dwn my thought life here,
many frens have been bugging me to ask of my blog link.

haha, here it is!